For anyone that cares im still feeling sick/ recovering form this weekend aka the weekend from hell aka stupid shit I did to myself that I have to promise never to do again. I cant even get myself to type it out here. I don’t even really let myself think about it . Anyways what I’ve eaten today is a thin bar. probably so bad for you but whatever and that’s it.
feels good but at the same time im trying not to give in to the pressure that I usually feel when it is the start of the week- to not fuck up that is . What do I mean by fucking up? oh you know just the usual bad habits slash self- hate that is typical of the normal American teenager. I wonder if that is correct AP style.. to capitalize “American” I mean. I think about stuff like that now or at least I try to. Maybe if i force myself to start paying attention to details like that Ii’ll actually start passing my classes. Oh yeah, that’s part of the no more fucking up initiative. I need to start doing better in my classes. I need to do a lot of things. that’s the thing.